A series of manuscripts (many handwritten notebooks) was found after his death. These writings seem to be improvised prayers in the form of poems. They are mostly handwritten in German, English, and Spanish, with a few in Russian and Finnish, and show no evident structure. It is not possible to determine which notebook was written first and which followed, as only rarely were dates or places recorded; in some cases, the location must be inferred from the context.
Jivat Sol seems to have been a soul searching for the reason for his existence and his stay on Earth. At times, he even doubted whether he truly belonged to this world.
As can be inferred from his writings, Jivat Sol appeared to live under the burden of memories from past lives, all accumulated as if in superposition. This immense weight seems to have made it impossible for him to lead a normal life in the present.
To step into his manuscripts and storage devices, discovered after his death, is like entering a surreal spiritual realm—a journey into the inner world of a man who believed himself aware of his past lives and who felt that this life was the final one, according to the plan of his soul, in his long journey toward God.
Having access to a purely spiritual dimension, from which the physical world—where his body was located—may have seemed unreal or dreamlike to him.
Besides the poems, a long series of guiding sentences—or leading thoughts—was found,
which he collected under the title “Sutras.”
Here, there is indeed a clear structure.
They consist of six chapters, each containing exactly 108 “Sutras.”
Interestingly, the very first Sutra states:
I.1 – “Don’t believe in God”
This appears as the primary premise or principle, which seems to form the basis of his prayers.
It therefore remains unclear whether these poems are prayers addressed to “God” (who, according to the first Sutra, “does not exist”), or whether they are love poems devoted to a human being—perhaps an unattainable beloved woman—or something else entirely. Reading these texts carries one into a poetic journey through a surreal world.
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